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Saturday, March 31, 2007

my lalalahx n blalalahx
things starting 2 get better...
everything is getting calm...
after been through so much pain,sad,confusion and wadever lah
but i wander... wad is dere more to come...
well i cant always stay in dis calm way somehow...
someday the wadever will come bak again lolx


well
2day i wokeup at 10.30
dono y la tink some 1 msg me den i wakeup
cannot go bak slp lolx....so after dat stone on com wadever... waiting 4 my dear2 finish band den we go lan shop meet the guys up
so... arnd 1+ i shower n left home...
den i meet up wif my dear ,nava and naresh
den we walk2 lanshop meetup wif petro,war,hidayat,leonard,mohaimin den donno who leftout la i donno den we 1 rnd dota.
i bully them tillholy shit lol... den got dis 2guys keep coming 2watch me.. donno wad dey wan oso -.- lol i jus ignore dem

so after 1rnd we decided go eat lunch KFC we walkwalkwalk to kfc~~
eating chickens give u breast u know... i've been like always eating KFC LOOK WAD HAPPEn 2 my body T___T lolx nvm la i skinny no breast lucky i hope it wun grow LOL
ok so after eating... dick n his frens were dere cannot remember who n deir name lah.. too many names... 2day is like a big gathering sia... den we go play pool

enjoyed the pool sia... i improved alot alot! hahax! but it was cool ... hehe
play finish liao den it was like quite late lah.. we were inside for like few hours
v long...den all zao le... left my dear me and nava... 2gether we go mac ...
i didnt eat la i jus kope deir frice n drink
finish eating... nava hafto go so lolx ok byebye lohx... so i brought my dear go ndp training mah... reach dere le she 4got 2 take her pass 2 enter her training so... cannot go lah... but since we go all the way so far le..

den we decided 2 haf sometime with ourselves xD bleahx i dowan say privacy~
(but don tink dirty)hahax just went on a date wif her lohx hehe xD
den after dat i took her home... =] hehex...
so i went home.. eat dinner which was like 11+ liao lolx..den slack till now lohx..
although is a long a tiring day... it was a gd day (:

well i love you dear
wishing it will be forever~

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10:41 AM

Saturday, March 24, 2007

speaking the fact...

family problems...
my personal problems...
everything happen in 1 day??

which is 2day...
i dowanna say much abt it...
but after i heard all the truth for my personal problem...
although it hurts...
i felt better
more clear of problems
face it even if im sad
because confusion has been cleared
but for my family problem...

it lies on my mom...
i bad mood go home...
i blew up my home as in make trouble
like talking rudely 2 my parents
someting liddat...
so...yea everything went upside down
she found out i drank oso
haix

although many problems jus come in at ones....
i hafto stay strong... walk along ben
move along..
i love you dear..
thanks..

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10:20 AM

Friday, March 23, 2007

i just wokeup....
sigh
wtf lah... BEN PLEASE CONTROL... control......
control!!!! ..
argh...
sigh
ben just control . don
lose it
Im just dam sensitive sigh...
wats wrong wif me?
maybe i cant help it cause is me...
maybe im like this?
sigh
y things just cant be comfortable n moves on
too much needles and traps coming out from my way
am i suppose 2 walk through all this
yea i am
so ben don do any fucking crap
control...and.. try 2 relax
sigh...
I FEEL LIKE...SCREAMING.. scream out my voice!!
TILL i feel better
but my brother sleeping...
sigh wad am i suppose 2 do...
its too.......
sigh


i love you

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7:36 PM


my lalalahx and blalalahx continues

ytd i lost it man seriously...
wad i wrote ytd was... venting my anger.. but didnt write all lah but felt better after blogging ytd...don mind me... so...
2day wakeup... my heart not feeling well sia... it was jus heavy all along...
i was jus moody in sch very moody...
den i 4got bring geography text book n nvr do her work properly(which i donno lah)
den the teacher call my mother n talk ....
call loh den ... i was feeling down whole day lah...

after sch... i was very shag...v moodless...
thx dear =] u lighten me up when i spoke 2 u while walking u home...

i love you ^^

den after dat go make my IC... my photo sucks... the light so bright hor i smile untill cannot smile den i was like = the mouth abit weird sia...
aiya wadever...

i wanna talk abt yesterday... the yihui thingy...
u know y i ask him get lost.....
it starts like this...
during chinese class... yi hui is always as usual (irritating) insult,boast,and alot of bullshit lah... den he was like crapping wif ryan mah... den ryan keep wacking him bak...
like kicking the table wadever loh...
so...
i join in loh
so my turn to do bak... my turn 2 irritate yi hui.. see how he feels...cause i see him kbkb ryan i oso bueh song... so i kick a chair beside him... kick 2 him loh... it was very light lah... like jus keep hitting his hands or leg softly oni...

i kick untill he said 1 MORE TIME U DO i throw the chair at u...
i was tinking like... hmm he must b joking cause.. he always kbkb mah... so
i kick again... he stood up take the chair... dump it at me...
i can see he hesitated 2 throw... but he still dump it at me but not full force..
i block it...
my right hand finger kanna cut abit... but it was alright not serious at all..
the serious thing is... y he had 2 do untill liddat...? =.=

fine loh 2day i cold war wif him whole day.. didnt even bother talk 2 him... he tinks im in the wrong... aiya i oso don giva dam...

if yihui is reading dis... wakeup lah pls...
although i apologise and i know dat is my fault testing him lah..
but cant help it he too kbkb le lolx

haix...well i realise dis few days ahead gonna b more stress i guess...
walk through wif strength!!! ahh ~

dis is my horoscope for 2day

Your sensitivity is high. This isn't a good day to venture into new situations.
In Detail
You are very sensitive right now, so this is not an ideal day to venture into new situations. The stars suggest that if you need to travel, you should bring a lot of creature comforts along to ease your experience and keep yourself comfortable. Strange locations could exacerbate your confusion, and getting lost is a distinct possibility. Staying home is the best option for today, but if you can't swing that, be sure to give yourself some extra time to adjust.

well is true lolx



oh ya and updates for the event dat day... i got some pictures took from asiasoft sia lol
oni the group who went dat day will know
lolx



mal and donno who 4got name LOL







almost whole group dere but cant see



dodo + san and xuan dere lolx


MYSTICLIGHT from audition dats him lol


LOL AND IM LAUGHING AT DIS 1 LOOK AT THE BABY GIRL !!
zoom in 2 have a closer look dam cute sia

actually got 1 more picture of a person i know in audi but... dont really know him... is aoiyuki korkor elvis_presly in audition..
got his face don dare put... later he know he bueh song come hum tum me lolx


hahax guess i'll stop here

i love you dear
always...

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6:12 AM

Thursday, March 22, 2007

my lalalahx and blalalahx

pass 3days of sch is just boring.... as usual tired n wadever shit happening in school lahx... 1st day of sch was alright.....
2nd day of sch kanna saw and abit moody
3rd day which is nw my post the day...sucks badly..
sigh im lazy write wats happening in sch lahx..im nt in the mood now... all i wanna say 1st is...yihui.... get l0st...get LOST

maybe not get lost FUCK OFF!!
his mother call me summore... i told the mom said... yi hui got WOODLANDS TRAINING.. i was showering... the way she speak 2 me spoil my mood already...
so after awhile.. i was on com lah
den ah she call bak again..
SHOUT 2 me
in chinese .. but i translate 2english
YOU BLUFF ME IZZIT ... I CALLED 1 BARTLEY STUDENT ASK SAY DON HAVE...U OUTSIDEWIF HIM IZZIT...i wanted 2 shout wtf u hong gan ah... i tell u the truth dowan 2 believe... fuck off bitch... hangup.. i wanna say dat man please...

I GOT RESPECT I GOT MANNERS I SAY BAK BUT I GT NO CHOICE I SHOUT BAK
IN CHINESE OSO

HE REALLY GOT TRAINING LA...U CALL OTHER BARTLEY STUDENT 4wAD CALL FROM BBALL 1 LAH... SHE SHOUT AGAIN SAME TING wad I SAID ABOVE I SAID FINE LOH JUS CALL LAH... DEN SHE ASK WAD Number i jus say i donno lah... den she hangup

zzzzz i typing dis making me lose it sigh sucked
sigh.... 2day sucks .... my personal things...
i seriously don wanna write is jus too peronsal 4 anyone 2 read... this just sucks in my hart... another enemy i have discovered all along... -.-
sigh...

i didnt have a gd dinner 2day... ok maybe not really a dinner.. i jus ate 2 slice of bread wif cheese just for my dear....
if she nvr threaten me for eating i wun b eating my dinner already...

so yea at least i ate... if not i don even feel like eating man...

4got 2 write.. i went 2 cut hair oso n ya u'll see me wif new hair tmr

sigh frustrated lah frustrated... pain pain.... sighs..
btw ppl don b worry abt me... im trying 2b strong already...i wont b cutting my hand
no more bleed... if i wanna bleed i go pierce my ear or someting now... if can lah.. but 11pm how to sia...
sighs...
ooo remembered someting DONATE BLOOD hahaha ...

sighs i got no mood 2 carryon or else alot of screwed up tingy will appear in my blog n 2 personal lahx... oni a person in my life knows...
maybe i shud write a dairy ... den i can just throw my feelings and all my irritating fucktup inside lahx... sry lah i keep using fuck... cant help it.... im just sighs...
yea maybe i shud start writing a dairy soon... it seems like after throwing everything in ur dairy.. u will feel better eh... sighs guess i stop here

i love you dear always...




jus feel like singing dis song 4 the moment 2 calm myself ...sighs
well lyrics here ... Tell Her Jesse McCartney lyrics


I know how it feels To wake up without her Lying here all alone Just thinking about her And I can’t believe her hold on me It’s something indescribable I know she knows But won’t you please

If you see my girl Just tell her I miss her smile Tell her I’m counting the minutes Gonna see her in a little while Oh, oh cause I know when she holds on to me She’s the one thing that I could never live without Oh, oh, oh… Tell her I love her

Oh yeah Just tell her I love her The way that she moves You know what it does to me Every night that she arrives I can hardly breathe Still can’t believe her hold on me She’s just so indescribable I know she knows But won’t you please Please

Yeah, if you see my girl Just tell her I miss her smile Tell her I’m counting the minutes Gonna see her in a little while Oh, oh cause I know when she holds on to me She’s the one thing that I could never live without Oh, oh, oh… Tell her I love her

Every time that I’m around her I just go in pieces Right there softly to the ground I’m so glad I found her I know how I feel

If you see my girl Just tell her I miss her smile Tell her I’m counting the minutes Gonna see her in a little while Oh, oh cause I know when she holds on to me She’s the one thing that I could never live without Oh, oh, oh… Just tell her I love her

If you see my girl (yeah) Just tell her I miss her smile (tell her I love her) Tell her I’m counting the minutes Gonna see her in a little while Oh, oh, cause I know when she holds on to me (I know…) She’s the one thing that I could never live without Oh, oh, oh… Oh, oh, oh… Oh, oh, oh…

Tell her I love her Oh… Tell her I love her

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7:58 AM

Sunday, March 18, 2007

my lalalahx and blalalahx

wokeup 5.45....
by my jie...
wif a wake up call
(RING MY fone ring)
i panic on bed sia
den was wandering wth where the sound coming from
i wanted 2 chk is the fone but... cannot open eyes properly...
when i took the fone... my fone dropped...
i pick it up and answer... my 1st word...
(i wanna die le)
LOL is really dam tired sia 3hours slp only

den walk 2 toilet go washup... shower
go downstairs on com.... and make my own breakfast... hotdog bread..
den sit at com play audi awhile while eating...
6.45 i immeadiately left home
took bus 158 to aljunied mrt den go to kallang...
reached dere about 7.20+
nobody was there... none of me frens r dere =.=
ok i waited awhile...
the 3 sis came...wif 1 of the sis dear...
den followed by another couple came...
den eugene came a little longer...
jie was late!!! lol but she came wif another 2 frens
which i jus knew them 2day...
quite fun... can get along wif dose farny guys lol xD(mal and erm 4get his real name but i donno la 4got lahx)
so 2day we whole group go to the stupid sports event thingy...
ok la maybe not stupid cause.. we 1 big group go is like gathering liddat...
so to
ppl who plays maple or audition or pangya shud know abt dis event
i was thinking 2day go there take goody bag den zao liao

i was wrong
1st we collect t-shirt...
eh bo pic yet... fone not wif me...
den the t-shirt hor... dey dumb loh...can reqeue and take more 1 sia...
as long dey don remember face can liao....
Mal took abt 4 sia rofl!!
den after dat we have 2 walk a so called walkaton.... 3.5km only lah...
to collect a coupon to collect our goody bag...
so ok loh walk walkwalkwalkwalk~~~ den collect coupon.... collecting coupon dat time mus queue up also...
so we all like take xtra coupon lah... den dey got free goody bag sia..
i good boy... lazy take summore so i only took 1 goodbag ok loh...
inside got water... lucky draw ticket..
1k a-cash = $1 free gifts in games which worth like maybe more lah...
the goody bag was gd...
den milk was on stage oso... singing ...hahahax i saw milk 2day...
wanted 2 take pic de because saw LIVE mah... but fone notwif me bo pic ..sianed
den lucky draw dat time... we won nth sia... we see all the prize gift away all so cute,chio and EXPENSIVE

lazy say wad prize la... but the best prize was a free computer desktop sia
den after dat lolx can see alot ppl face jealous xD
but cant blame is a lucky draw hehe
so after dat we went 2 tampines mall go eat donno wad central
the food was gd sia...
after eating bloated le....

but hor 2day was really tiring lah... untill nw.... im still feeling tired... im nt in the mood to go 2 slp either...
all i wanna do now is jus 2 wait for my (most important person) to come bak
i really wanna see her....

sighs.... i donno y im feeling emo lah but.... maybe because im tired dat is affecting me oso... lolx
well... hope she comes bak soon... so i can see her ^^ hehe
and of course i would feel better lahx lolx hehe xD

guess i'll stop here

i love you always....

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2:11 AM

Saturday, March 17, 2007


my lalalahx and blalalahx

continue from dat day i went shopping hehe


i went 2 meetup wif peter n ryan at serangoon ...den we were wearing all green shirt sia.. from darkest 2 lightest... lol
i darkest ...peter dark grn...ryan light grn


den we take mrt go to harbor front
... see gt anything 2 shop...because ryan hafto shop for stacey's bday present hehe...ok loh we go hunting 4 gifts..
so when we on the way in the mrt... got dis 3 china guys ah came in from doby ghault station (hometown~)LOL den me and peter sitting dwn at the 2 sits in the mrt 1 lah... den ryan opposite sit alone... so 1 of the china guys sit beside ryan...
den when dey talk Rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr~~~ rr~~ r~ the china essence like OMG SO SLANG like rapping liddat... den we over stare at ryan keep laughing LOL because dey like abit trying 2 act yandao oso... dey funny lahx LOL when dey speak n the way dey act yandao...example touch hair LOL ...erm not maomao xD (forppl who tink dirty )

so after dat.
..so we see arnd like nth leh...but when we reach mu-ee shop.... we saw dis set of (laughter rofl pai seh typo thx jie... Lighter**)... which me n ryan long ago decided 2 buy de lah...

den we bought it

black colour de is ryan $11.90
middle de is peter $9.90
last 1 is mine $11.90


hahax so after buy le...we like nth else 2 shop so.... i went 2 meet my another fren colleague...which is at vivo dere working at the BARBIE MAC de... den i hafto pass him cd ma...so... i pass 2 his colleague 1st...hehe..

after pass le... we went go PLAZA SING... my so called hometown lol to me!
den continue shopping!! =D... my shopping dat day wasnt shopping anything 4 myself... i was looking for someting nice for her so... yea.. IM nt gonna tell u wad i bought yet... horhor...if u wanna know...

u ask me bah im not gonna post incase she see lah hehe...
after buying it (clue) my wallet immeadiately no money
lolx den i was like donno wad 2do le..when my wallet empty.. so i followed ryan and peter go action city find monkey...cause i tink stacey wans a monkey ma...
so yea i help him a few choices den he chose 1 and bought it... xD i oso borrowed some money from ryan n bought another cute tingy 4 her LOL so is like ok nvm...
hehe

eh ryan i will return the cash asap lolx.. no hurry mah hehe ^^

after shwopping we all go bak home change 1st...den we come out da bball hehe...play untill v late le ...den eat dinner at kopitiam lahx~~~ after dinner we met wordie at econ... xD den we 2gether slack slack till 11.30 because we saw police car driving pass our sitting area...cause they patrolling ma...den we faster zao...
we slack dao farny sia... den ryan and my lighter nw...bo oil liao no fire le T_Thrrrr
den go bak home orhorh slp zzzzzzzzz at 5.20+am cause i audi the whole night LOL

den 2day 10pm fucking grass cutter woke me up....den the CUTTING SOUND ZAZAZAZA i bueh tahan jus jump out of bed go brush teeth den on com stone dere ...but mystone hor... will tink of my dear 1... haix ... 2day i spend whole day rotting at home ... cause i moodless 2 do anything liao...i stay at home maple lah... audition whole day lah... den keep thinking of her... dis is how i rot when shes not around lolx... but haix... i wish shes coming bak soon

btw...i later hafto wakeup 5.45 am for the stupid sports tiny event from asiasoft 1...the donno wad event lah... so many free gift i know but...i meeting my (frens) at kallang arnd 7.30am wth sia so early... i didnt intend to go 1 but... dowan pang seh la... den summore i moodless cause i really miss my dear haix... den she coming bak ma.. i rather wait 4her can go dat outing loh... cause if she call i immeadiately go find her liao idon care xD lolx... haix but
since alot of frens going... i might as well jus go lohx bo bian... den maybe afterdat i can find her (IF she come bak le) hehe but... i pas 3days nt enuff slp den stupid grass cutter woke me up haix... left 3hours of slp...
haiya offing com le hehe

i love you dear always

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10:48 AM

Thursday, March 15, 2007

my lalalahx and blalalahx title xD

accident delete MY taggies message!!! i only wanna delete the donno who tag me dat... yucky taggy den ... OMG click Accident delete all hrrr T__T~~~~~~

and my new skin looks like gals blog wor... PLUS my music LOL
nvm i don care...it looks nicer... im bored of my blueish blog page
if you are wandering why my music dere.... i purposely de... so PPL can see xD

hahx change of blog skin le (: .... i lazy 2 recall n write long long de story le lah LOLx
like i gave some ppl my blog link dey went in and see....dey kanna shock also say wad...
why my post all chao long 1 lolx

haix sian ah....my common test results hor.... is like bullshit...i seriously didnt care about my common test lahx...den at parents day dat time.... my teachers say me liao lohx... say wad... slp in class lah nvr do homework...sometime do homework in class....fine lohx....u win teachers U WIN -____-

aiya oso cant blame cause i seriously didnt care xD.....but i already plan myself la.... mid year 100% must do better no matter wad... or else my parents sure go crazy bomba me again n again .... keep saying my future blah blah blah..... PLEase lah i know wad im doing -.-

den ah.... actually i got my I.C making letter liao... and is already OVER due dead LOLx ... but i still hafto go make my I.C asap no matter wad... or else is an offence leh horhor lolx ....

den whole day stay at home audi audi audi lolx -.-.... JIE i help u LVL 19 for audi with my pass 3 hours ~~~~~~~~~ T___T omg lohx.... ytd i really stoning donno wad i doing keep giving u exp...untill i didnt know it lasted for 3 hours lolx....
cause i was jus dreaming of her n stoning brain dead...

oh ya 4got 2 say... my dear.... she went to m'sia le T__T hrrrrrrrrrrr
3more days ba... lolx mus tahan =/ although ... really miss her lahx....i hug my apple 2 slp lohx... cause it reminds me of her mahx xD and she also brought along my apple oso.... so hehe i guess she oso hug it 2 slp o...

signing off bah....going out for shopping... d0wan stay at home stone till die again


my neverending Love
always loves u dear ^^
flying kiss to m'sia~~ hawhaw


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